shiun

YOU GUYS.

you know i love star trek dearly, right, i love it so much because i still remember my eastern european self sitting in front of the western television the first time watching TNG being like *_* holy shit and it seriously was this whole new world opening up to me and i'll always love star trek so much but i can't help but feel deeply deeply sad that it never gave me a good, right, wonderful queer romance.

so this video makes me cry so much.

“To all the queer Star Trek romances that never were.”




i'm also drunk, just so you know but. but i'm seriously sad over this. actually i'm crying for real and i think i need a hug.

:(

I am so bored heeeeeeeeelp me. I'm never bored idk what's going on :o

Anyway I feel like drawing so if you want to, give me a prompt and I'll draw a sketch for you! Like a character/pairing and a prompt, for example: Dukat/Garak puppies. Uhm except not that one please. :D

also i don't really know what to post on lj and what here but i really like dw right now, it feels more familiar for some reasons. oh well. :)

the other day i discovered bobby pins! omg i'm a true longhair now look at my crazy hair xD



also i finished my socks :)



and i'm trying to write fanfic and not care if it sounds good - i mean after 3 years of not writing, it can't be good lol but i just get stuck on the simplest things: like how there's no real way to say "my dear" in german if you don't want to sound like thomas gottschalk that is. argh. german isn't too great with endearments anyway.

listen my dears if i haven't written at least 500 words by tonight i'm going to cry. going to get some wine now to erm, smooth the way to creativity and not caring anymore. [eta]: fuck yes with the help of music, my twitter friends and written?kitten i managed to write over 800 words. now, nothing happened in them but whatever, i'm proud. :)

also i might have watched The Wire three times already. ;_;

ps my icons match lol

first things first: happy belated birthday titanic! i hope it was a very good one. ♥

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dammit i have an idea for a pretty long fic, but every time i sit down to actually write something it becomes a jumble of terrible bad german/english. speaking so much english the last couple of years has improved my english a lot but my german got horrible. i stopped writing the same time i started talking and reading more english i think?

i'm not confident in my ability to write english fic and i honestly don't want to but also. my german sucks so much right now. :( and in german i have to deal with the du/Sie issue and yeah with bashir and garak it's Sie probably right? but sometime that has to switch and omg that just adds cultural meaning that wasn't there before and i'm totally overthinking this BUT I DON'T WANT TO DEAL WITH IT ;-; writing sucks.

and then i drew a bit and made the mistake of looking for some garak/bashir fanart and i found some perfect ones and now i don't ever want to draw again because clearly i'm so bad it sob sob.

maybe i should just starting knitting star trek sweaters or something.

also all that thinking about garak made me think of g'kar who is still the greatest character that has ever existed and now i want to write fic where garak and g'kar meet which brings me back to my original issue.

sorry for the rambling ;-;

also listen to this it's so so so beautiful
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BkVT8GsFzF8